Ello, matey.

I want to be a pirate sooo bad... Just roaming the seven seas..
ah.
Dreams.

I like to call myself a dreamer. some would probably just call me crrazy though.

So. I found out im part german today. what the hell? You wait almost 18 years to tell me? Great job.

So. Since my last post...

Im single.
Im in an awesome band called Eyes of Elura.
I have an AWESOME penpal-ish friend named Amy :)
and overall, life is good.

but i am kinda lonley.
Not saying I want to be with anyone right now.
Im just.
Lonely.

It kind of sucks, seeing everyone around you have that one person who they can cling to when theyre upset.
Or need a hug.
I havent cuddled in months.

But it could be worse.
I could have the measles.
Or Herpes. that would suck balls.
and itch them.

Been awhile, eh?

Hey, guys! its been a LONG timee since my last blog. about 8 months, actually.
SO, how is everyone?
After reading my previous blogs, ive realized.... I used to be quite the depressed person.
Not anymore, no, no.
Im a happy camper.

So, im with the girl of my dreams. I have been for a few weeks, actually. But we've liked each other for a LONG time... So, things just kinda worked themselves out.

I know, I know, its short, but I have to go.
I'll be checking up on you.
Adios!

Here I am, accept it.

Well, I'm back. I took a month off, to help calm my nerves, and kept myself from killing myself. I gotta say, I make one helluvah psychiatrist.

Anyways, how art thou, world? Its been awhile.
So, Not much new news. Still single. Bleh.
I hate girls.
I need a woman.
Girls lead you on. They tell you one thing while they secretly tell someone the same.
Fuck em.

I havent felt love in a really long time and its starting to get to me.
I feel myself slipping away more and more everyday.
Im dying. I can feel it.
one of these days, I'm not going to be here to post this blog.
One of these days, I'm not going to be here to tell you how my life is.
I want someone to share my life with, before that times comes.
I dont know WHEN it will come either.
It could be 50 years from now.
It could be tomorrow?
Will I be missed? Sure.
But will anyone truly know my story? I don't think so.

2010 has been off to a rough start, but it'll get better.
I start recording my EP monday.
gonna do a cover of BYOB.
Then my song "When the Road ends"
Then my newest, "With Love..."
Which is also the title of the EP.
With Love.

I find it kind of ironic.

The other day I was listening to Bring Me the Horizon, but the disk kept skipping.
So, I take it out of the cd player to wipe it off. And there it was, on the CD.

An Ex gave me that Cd. I dont have feelings for her anymore, but the coincidence convinced me to write my newest song.
Heh.

Another thing I wanna talk about...

I hate PEOPLE.
Only recently have I realized how little my friends care about me.

The guy that was supposed to be like my bro does nothing but insult me.
The girl that I USED to be great friends with forgets about me, wont answer my texts or even CARE how I feel.
Two of the girls i liked totally stabbed me in the back.
"And the rest of the world just moved on as I was left alone, to pick up the pieces of my life I called perfect."

Hah, I might use those lyrics later. I kinda like em.
Fuck People.
I have my guitar.
I have my music.
I dont need you.
I dont WANT you.
You had your chance.
Eat your heart out.
Cause when you need me.
Im fucking gone.

See ya later world ;)